Wednesday, February 5, 2020
I QUIT
I disavow the post that was here before. I still quit and I'm still a Christian but I was much too extreme in my reasoning. I am calmer now and I see that I was just too desperate to please God and said a lot of things that I don't believe. Fukumoto is a great writer and while I do still think he's not writing as well as he used to that doesn't mean it's wrong to read his works. I'm sorry for freaking out.
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Yikes
ReplyDeleteWell it's your life and I wish you luck. Hope you are happier.
ReplyDeleteYou had the right to quit at any time, and woyld be dearly missed, but your blatant homophobia is disgusting. I dont wish you well in life.
ReplyDeleteIt always makes me laugh when retards use the term "homophobes" . Most people aren't afraid of fags, they're disgusted by them. So the better term would be misohomo or something (misos in Greek means disgust/repugnance while phobos is fear). Also "homo" can stand for many other things like "homogenization" or "HOMO" (highest occupied molecular orbital) or just "human").
Deletenah you're just cowards
DeleteHe cried out with the anonymous tag name lol
Delete@Goral you're a dumb fuck and fake intellectual and that's so sad. Literally look up the meaning of a phobia, it's not only about fear.
DeleteI wouldn't want a homophobe to be the main translator of Kaiji anyway LMAO, good riddance.
ReplyDeleteGod wants more Kaiji translations
ReplyDelete8 years and you finally realized you wasting your time?
ReplyDeleteWhen you accept the Lord Jesus Christ into your heart he changes you and shows you everything you're doing wrong. It happens very quickly.
DeleteThis is beyond delusional. Do some actual self reflecting instead of merely accepting what "jesus tells you", how about that for a change?
DeleteHope you get to read this, Sonic. I understand you're dealing with a lot of stuff in this moment. It is a great thing you're reaching out to Christ, but it would be great if you were doing it with sincerety, with peace of mind. There's nothing to regret, the lives we live are the ones Christ intended, so cherish those memories well.
DeleteDon't get stuck up in strict church practices, neither listen to what a pastor spouts. Read the gospels and reason them yourself. Do not take the word of men to heart, speak with God instead.
Deep down, I hope that Sonickrazy is disconnected from the internet, and doing a cure, while some hacker is messing with his blog... I can't believe someone can be brainwashed this quickly
DeletePeace of mind is one hell of a drug and Sonic himself even articulated on Discord how he loves it. Fukumoto, hell many other mangaka, push the idea that it turns you into a sheep to be preyed upon by the wolves.
DeleteThe fact that people like Sonic can be immersed in an entire culture that warns them of this mental deficiency yet obliviously plunge into it anyway has made me realize that people like him are genetically hard-wired to be used by others, nothing else. As it is, I'm glad I'll never have power over anyone.
Ok I removed the homosexuality part. I'm struggling with my own homosexual urges so it came to mind but I didn't mean to imply that was the biggest problem with his works. It's the other aspects conflicting with my faith that are the real reason. I don't know what God thinks about gay people but there do seem to be some that are inclined towards it and have no attraction towards the opposite sex at all. So I don't know. I'm sorry for my callous inclusion of that word. I should have considered that was what people would notice the most.
ReplyDeleteIt's not a lie. I went through a demonic attack and God saved me. I realized how much darkness was in my heart and He has been showing me miracles ever since. I'll make a YouTube video about it some day soon and then you'll all understand.
DeleteFKMT showed how religion is nothing more but crooks taking advantage of those who feep their life is worth nothing. You're becoming one of their sheep if you continue to pursue this brainwashed path.
DeleteAgain, I ask you to reconsider your options and look elsewhere for help.
I feel really sad for you.
DeleteIt's ok. Let us focus on the love of god instead of fighting about things like that.
DeleteLmao this guy really went krazy
DeleteThis assessment of FKMT's morals seems superficial, seeing morality as an exterior thing, defined by convention. This feels more like an internal problem than a moral or FKMT problem.
ReplyDeleteGood luck in the coming days, take care of yourself.
Take care of yourself and good luck with everything.
ReplyDeleteMaybe someday you'll think back to your hard work and think that it was worth something though. Kaiji really is about steeling his heart and finding himself. Your comments about your feelings on FKMT of seem similar to Kaiji's thoughts on the world; up to you to make the most of things!
Gee probably because of people like him?
ReplyDeleteI wonder if this is just a phase
ReplyDeleteWait, so you've gone full denial closet case? Do you live in the South/Mid-west? I genuinely feel bad for you. You only think religion is the solution to your massive issues because it's the easiest, besides, didn't FKMT show you that organized religion is fake?
ReplyDeleteSay what you want but committing to religious faith is NOT an easy solution
DeleteI would say that letting someone else dictate how you should perceive and act in the world is a significantly easier option than choosing to face life on your own terms, especially when there's significant social pressure encouraging the former. There's a reason why the stereotype of the holy fool exists.
DeleteGood luck with the rest of your life, homie. Thanks for all the work you've done. I'd love to see you come back some day
ReplyDelete"""pro-homo"""
ReplyDeletebro in the original post he lumped in homosexuality with MURDER. its understandable why thats a fucked up thing to do. its fine though, he cleared it up
Yeah sorry again I just got so worked up i threw it in. Translating the "gay camping" chapters was really hard for me when I'm still coming to terms with my new faith. So it was on my mind as a reason for quitting, that's all. I see why people freaked out.
ReplyDeleteThank you for everything you did for the FKMT community. You have changed my life through translating Fukumoto's wisdom and you have introduced me to one of my favorite creators and let me experience them. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with everything, your help in bringing out Fukumoto's works definitely help many people get through hard times in their lives. I have a feeling you identify with Kaiji as one of the losers of society which is why you're questioning what you've been doing the last few years has been a waste of time. Kaiji, Tonegawa and virtually all of humanity are both good and evil, and society is not as awful as you may feel. I hope you find some happiness in your life and learn to love the person you are and the part of you that put all your heart and soul into this.
ReplyDeleteThis guy gets it.
DeleteSociety IS evil. If there is nothing OUTSIDE of society to guide you, then you are hopelessly lost.
DeleteAs deluded as you are about religion Oreimo, you are right about this.
DeleteEven though I'm not religious, I wish you the very best, James.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the translations all these years. My buds and I really appreciated them. I wish you the best!
ReplyDeleteWhat an embarrassing post. Religion isnt going to magically make your problems go away. The fact youve learned nothing from fkmts manga despite translating them all this time is astounding.
ReplyDeleteSo who should I ask for the remaining Pen-Chan translations?
ReplyDeleteWell this took a turn
ReplyDeleteIt is your life, do what you think is best and be happy. I myself would recommend to stay away from churches or sects because they are pure evil imo, because they always try to get the money/participation from broken people. But Faith on it's own, without the corruption of churches might help you to find your way to live. Whatever, my opinion, I wish you the best, be careful.
ReplyDeleteWell, I'm surprised to say the least, but I'd just like to sincerely say thank you for your work on the series, regardless of how you feel about FKMT's work now, I hope my gratitude is worth at least something to you. I won't insult your religious beliefs or how they're effecting this decision. Although I disagree with them, if that's how you feel, I can't help but respect it. I WILL however give a quick fuck you, for the homophobia that was editted out, but you apologized, and it seemed genuine enough, so it's just a quick one.
ReplyDeleteI'll end off on a positive note and say, thank you again, I hope whether you ever come back or not, I wish you the best in everything you do. I know a lot of people will look down on you for this post, but I won't, and I hope that gives you some happiness.
I don't agree with you on religion, but thank you from the bottom for all of your hard work and take the best care
ReplyDeleteI know you've been having a hard time of things recently, I wish you all the best in your future endeavors. Like others have said, I don't agree with demonizing the 'vices' of others. However I do agree that Kaiji hasn't been as good recently. If there's one thing Fukomoto can do, it's milk a publication.
ReplyDeleteI'd recommend re-reading/watching the brave man road arc. It still holds up very well and hopefully serves as a reminder that you don't have to walk alone in life~
Wish you very well in religion Sonick. Stick with it but do not sever all ties with others. Religion is not a phase it's a way of life. You must keep some consistency.
ReplyDeleteI remember a long time ago you were shocked at fukumoto's handling of homosexual and you mentionned your own urges. I was the one who told you "please keep that to yourself, sorry I'm homophobic for religious reasons". That was maybe a little harsh but I think it's the way it's supposed to be. We can all live together in this world but God created us with purpose. Never be mean to homosexual, never harass them, never insult them. But don't be ok with their way of life.
It's like smoking pot. Is it a problem ? Not really. But were we created for that ? I don't think so. We can't promote that.
So don't hate yourself too much for those thoughts. Just live. Love others. Be good. And promote what is Good in the eyes of God.
For fukumoto's moral's code... It's complicated. You're probably right in your post. Even if I know deep down fukumoto share a lot of our values. He doesn't talk about boudhism so much for no reason.
I just think he's just not a "master" he doesn't deserve any adoration. He's just a men. And sometimes he's wrong. He want to keep men strong by depicting the "good" side, the "strong" side of villain. To remind us what it is to be strong in the face of adversity. And that's a good thing !
But he does it by somewhat excusing those "villains". I'm glad Akagi never killed anyone by his way of life. I think the strength of Akagi was what fukumoto was really trying to grasp. He prefer his "pure" strenght over the evil one of washizu or the others evils charachters of the series.
To me the charachter of Akagi was his way of saying : "You don't need to be evil to be strong".
And finally last thing before posting this comment : You say fukumoto forgot all about his morals. But to me the most moral arc he ever done was the arc about friendship and love he just realeased in Kaiji.
I know there's a lot of wrong thing in his work. But that was good. To me the way the villain Kazuya learned that love actually exist. Selfless love ! That as a GOOD thing. But I don't know... Maybe you're right. Maybe there's too much evilness in his manga. Do what you want ^^ You have the right to quit if you don't feel comfortable.
You're right about one thing : Fukumoto's not perfect. His moral code is not perfect. He do not deserve adoration.
Thanks for all thoses years of translation.
Retards like you only make it worse.
DeleteSorry... I know we can't all agree on the same things. I don't want sonick to hate anyone or himself but I can't go beyond that. We can all live together I'm sure of it. We just have different models of society that's all.
DeleteAnd don't worry religiously I'm moderate, I wouldn't be reading akagi and kaiji otherwise...
Take care and sorry if it sounded harsh what I said.
Well at least sound sane.
DeleteYou*
DeleteI just want to say that if you or anyone thinks Fukumoto humanizes the villains too much, you don't appreciate the horrors of the past century: nazism and communism. It's far more natural to demonize and "other" your enemies than to see common ground. You speak from a position of comfort and possibly delusion if you think such intense ideological hatred doesn't already surround is in this day and age and that the horrors couldn't repeat.
DeleteLove you forever for all your hard work.
ReplyDeleteThat... sure is an incredibly convoluted way of saying "I quit FKMT scanlating because his current manga/arcs bore me and don't resemble his earlier works as much. Also I have way too much stuff on my plate to be able to focus on it these days."
ReplyDeleteYou could have just said that. You could've just left it and that and saved yourself from any unnecessary drama and misunderstandings. I'm sure we would have understood. Instead we get this. Follow your heart and do what makes you happy, I guess, but I can only hope you can reach out to the right people and get help with whatever you're tormented with. As other comments have said, religion won't magically make all your problems go away, as much as you think it will.
Religion won't magically make all problems disappear, however, it IS the only true hope there is in this world.
DeleteFor people with room temperature iq maybe.
DeleteHey man, while I'm sorry to hear that you'll be quitting the translation work, I'm glad to hear your life is heading in a more positive direction.
ReplyDeleteSorry you're dealing with so much negativity in the comments. Make sure to take care of yourself, eat right, get some exercise, and try to get involved in some community activities. Times will probably get rough for a little after this, but you have the inner strength to come out ahead.
Thanks again for all the work, and best of luck moving forward.
Thank you for bringing us Kaiji and other Fukumoto works for so long, and good luck in your future endeavors. I hope you find peace.
ReplyDeleteWell, regardless of what I think about the post (you clearly lost balance in your life and need to get that shit sorted asap instead of blaming FKMT works for it, don't worry about homosexuals seething too much and keep in mind that there's also nothing wrong with being a homosexual yourself if you feel that way - you just gotta sort that shit out yourself in your head and fuck anyone who tries to tell you otherwise, just don't lie to yourself)
ReplyDeleteI still appreciate all of the effort you put into giving us high-quality translations and bringing Kaiji to a wider audience. Seriously dude, I have some knowledge of how to translate things and your stuff was always on point, you clearly have talent for it.
Cheers, man.
This post demonstrates a depressing lack of self awareness, I think you genuinely need help, and not that of the religious kind. The delusion that positivity in your life is a direct result of faith is a tempting one, but it can be a self-made wall that bars you from real self improvement that can change your life. It's scary to have no direction, but you can do something about that on your own. It's scary to not know the answers to the world, and yet nobody on this planet does know the answers, if they claim to they are deeply engaged in intellectual dishonesty. No omnipotent being is deciding the path for you, and the current being you cling to has supposedly played a part in vile deeds, making willy-nilly decisions about what is good and what is wrong.
ReplyDeleteAs for practical advice, don't do that YouTube video thing. Seriously, don't make a video explaining how you evaded a demon attack and Jesus saved you or whatever bullshit you've convinced yourself of. Take it from somebody who grew up with schizophrenia in their teenage years, your brain is flawed beyond belief. You are wrong far more often than you are right, and there is no certainty for you to cling to, but you can learn and correct yourself. If you try to explain something that is impossible to explain, you will make a fool of yourself and invite harassment, not convince the world that you're right.
Thank you for your work, regardless of views on religion or whatever, I just really appreciate the stuff you have brought us. Wish you the best out there.
ReplyDeleteReligion is dangerous, but if you want to quit you owe it to yourself. You've done great work and I'm very grateful to you. I wish you success in all your endeavors.
ReplyDeleteRead the power of now and a new earth
ReplyDeleteTalk to a therapist, seriously for your own sake.
ReplyDeleteThe pain you are going through is very real and legitimate to me even through this blog. Please don't look back at these years as black and white, wasted time or fulfillment. Your releases always left me with an impression of someone prideful and intelligent in whatever they do. With pure sincerity.
ReplyDeleteIn the earlier years these translations of gambling delinquents and death games got me through some really dark times. And I just wanted to say thanks, once again. As one gets older and wiser, one accepts and more deeply understands one's own contradictions. Those seeming hypocrisies and regrets are as much a part of us as the things that we are steadfastly sure and proud about. Try to see the grey and don't ever feel like it was all bad, or that you were all bad.
Wherever life takes you, keep that pride and sincerity and I think you will wind up being just fine. Thank you so much.
The saddest part here is that you grossly misunderstood the purpose of fiction that depicts evil acts. I hope you mature and realize the innate value of storytelling of this kind soon enough. Even the bible itself contains story after story of sinners trying to do what is right in a world that pushes them to do evil. Is the bible satanic for this too?
ReplyDeleteGet a therapist. Religious insanity isn't the answer at the moment.
ReplyDeleteWell... thanks for all that work so far.
ReplyDeleteBut still.. you could just have a break and playing a game to free your mind or see some friends instead of jumping into religion to put your problems under a carpet
THANK YOU to SonicKrazy, Biggums and Tambur for your YEARS of dedication. You guys gave us so much joy.
ReplyDeleteTo SonicKrazy and Biggums, I hope you guys enjoy a well deserved rest as you ride off to the sunset.
To Tambur, thanks for carrying on the torch.
Yeah who's gonna take over for Pen-Chan?
ReplyDeleteAbove all else, I hope you can find some peace of mind and hopefully seek out therapy to work out all of these issues you've been dealing with. You've been having a very rough time recently and we all want the best for you. Again, please consider therapy.
ReplyDeleteBut also thank you for all your 8 years of work, I can't express enough how appreciative I am that you have given so much access to Fukumoto's works to us. Kaiji is one of the most important pieces of media to me and your passion for this manga was always great to read, this has always been my favorite scanlation group for that reason.
> and your passion for this manga was always great to read, this has always been my favorite scanlation group for that reason.
DeleteWell said Frog! So it's already been 8 years since "We can't Decide". Your post feels like a trip back in time, kinda like Chrono Trigger ;)
FKMTKrazy is by far my favorite scanlation group as well. They were passionate Fukomoto fans just like us, regular joes. 45ers like the rest of us lazy Kaiji fans. BUT they rose to the challenge and generously sacrificed so much effort to scanlate these great stories for us.
They went through some TOUGH times. Biggums with the passing of his mom, SonicKrazy with the passing of his dad, Tambur who was blindsided by his cat's claw. But they always came back and gave us chapter after chapter.
Their scanlation work was top notch, and they always remained humble and were so kind with their time.
Thank you for all these years of hard work, gave us a lot of joy. Best of wishes for your new way of life and life in general.
ReplyDeleteI think you shouldn't be bitter about all these years of translating while your fanbase cherish so much. I think you started working on FKMT's works cuz you found some truth about the evils of society in it and maybe some advice to live morally. But it's not good to take life lessons from a guy who just draws manga, give him life mentor status and feel betrayed if he doesn't meet these impossible expectations. Also storytelling and depiction of evil has an important role in literature to play in making it conscious and be better prepared to face it. All those years where about you enjoying a manga and making it possible so other ppl enjoy it too, in my opinion a successful endeavor. You may regret them as a waste of time, you could do other useful things with your life but you didn't had that wisdom then, you have it now. So it worked as a stepping stone, therefore not useless.
As for religion and direction as how to live moral life you may want to see the work of Jordan Peterson, he helped me tremendously and a lot of ppl across the world.
And lastly about your homosexual urges. Inmho religion has nothing to do with homosexuality, it's just an arbitrary thing of the past, something religious ppl found easy to condemn so they can feel more united, vindicated and "in the right side of God". I mean come on... What does God have to do with a dick sticking to a butt? I suggest to search, find God and Truth by yourself and not by high priests and churches. God is perfect , they are average assholes like all of us. What I find extremely dangerous is sexual repression. Really man, don't find yourself in a family with kids and being lifelong sexually repressed and unsatisfied thats like holding a boiling pot with your hands. It's gonna explode and destroy everything.
Best wishes in your life.
It could have been worse, he could have quit in the middle of Kaijis and Hyoudos final showdown arc.
ReplyDeleteBut seriously, thanks for all the chapters you have put out over the years, you really made a lot of peoples lives happier. If god doesn't want that then so be it.
Thanks for all the good work over the years! You deserve a medal and a vacation!
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ReplyDeletereally glad for you my friend, I still remember when I found you and talked to you in mahjong time (I think 5 years ago) and we talked about religious stuff and I told you I was muslim, I remember you said you don't believe in god anymore at that point, from that day whenever I see your name I was praying for you to see the light my friend, really happy for you, never be sorry about what you said about homosexuality! be strong and be confident! you are in the right path!
ReplyDeleteI used to translate one piece, bleach, naruto, fairy tail weekly all those series with my friends and I know excatuly what you mean, time to wake up and start a new page, trust me it will be easier for you from now on, if you need anything you contact me anytime and I will be there for you man, god bless you.
interesting
ReplyDeleteYou owed nothing to anyone and only did what you did for fans like me who want to read Kaiji.
ReplyDeleteThank you for everything, you will be remembered and have a place in history for me among stoptazmo, batoto, mangarock and others.
God bless and godspeed my friend.
I feel like the biggest takeaway from this drivel is that you did not actually understand a single thing of the works you were translating.
ReplyDeleteI'm baffled.
Please take the time read all of this, even though it's stupidly long. First an explanation of FKMT's mindset, as a form of thank you and since you deserve to know what you "wasted" all those years on. I'm not claiming to read the man's mind obviously, but I can grapple with literature analysis and expressed themes better than the average person. It was the thing I was best at in this comments section and I would read your awkward attempts at it and criticize them sometimes. Please read both parts carefully, because the FKMT part also deeply pertains to you. That being said, if being a translator for the manga didn't make you really understand him, then probably nothing will.
ReplyDeleteFirst, the comedy spin-offs and Washizu being sympathethic. FKMT tries to humanize the villains and impart not only compassion in his readers, but also respect for strength and merit. He is both a humanist and a deeply meritocratic man who accepts people will suffer through their own fault and that they alone can save themselves. He's definitely not anti-capitalist or whatever people might assume. If your angle is that he should discourage compassion and respect for characters who are not in line with his ideology, that's just not how he rolls. He sees the value in outlooks that are different from his own. He encourage a specific kind of loser mindset because it's humbling and pure,
but is not intrinsically against hierarchies, because a society without merit-based hierarchies is a contradiction. It is human to cheer when someone vocalizes harsh truths you already agree with and accept, then call them insincere and full of shit when they tell harsh truths you disagree with.
FKMT is a "masculinist" who espouses a non-superficial interpretation of being a real/proper man. He's secure in the knowledge that some men will be evil and that having strong men is ultimately more important for society. He's also aware of his own/human corruption and weakness in general and if he really doesn't blame mankind to the point of hating it, that's quite something. What I'm saying is that he's tolerant. Aware that virtue requires great selflessness, which is irrational and grounded in self-destructive madness that's difficult to accept. He admonishes characters for being pretenders who bullshit themselves and look for excuses/rationalizations/justifications (Urabe, Mitsuyama, Miyoshi/Maeda and Furuhata/Anou for being justified in betraying Kaiji...too many examples), but accepts that being a pretender to some degree is part of being human (head monk in Shin Kurosawa).
His villains' observations are not criticisms of the system/society, but human nature itself, which is MUCH harder to change. This is your big misunderstanding. And in that regard, do you really think that the Asian Three's idealistic victory against Kazuya doesn't rebel against that cruel truth of society? Or how Kaiji is awarded with new opporunities and good luck again and again because he did the morally right thing in the end? A true man follow his own code regardless of the rest of the world (Kaiji's words on Espoir), so the idea is that people need to change themselves. He promotes what he believes to be masculine ideals like a lack of insecurity, positive thinking over cynicism and neurosis, grappling with harsh truths and not bullshitting yourself, stoicism and keeping a "stiff upper lip", clarity of thought, moral integrity and individualism in a world of moral weakness.
(pt. 1)
It's kinda like you want FKMT to be a politician or an economist, but he's a philosopher-writer. Again, I know this concept is lost on people since they're not idea-oriented (or like to think they are when they're really not) and everything is just pure politics these days. But he believes in encouraging strength and idealistic purity in others and that IS what he has done. If you still believe he hasn't or that criticizing humanity without being insecure about it and showing some empathy/understanding is a sign of moral degeneracy, please eleborate on your case, because I don't really get what you expect from the man. I can only surmise you actually realise everything I've written here and you're simply accusing him of hypocrisy, but then you need to defend that properly. It's always easy to throw around accusations of insincerity or signs of nihilism over time, but you legit think religious dogma is the opposite?
DeleteLastly, I just want to point out that an admiration of theistic faith is something you two seem to have in common. But unlike you, FKMT surely doesn't like the more arbitrary and manipulative aspects of religion you're not supposed to question that turn you into a drone. At least Buranden Gai implies it. These aspects are also deeply theatrical and only appeal to people who are deeply hurt/confused.
James. I have my fair share of frustrations and disagreements with FKMT too. I respect but don't revere him. I do wonder if in your case, you feel bitter and betrayed because you hoped that after reading his works, your life, long-term mental state and outlook on the world would gradually improve on their own. Maybe not. But there's no question that, like that one panel during Kaiji's match with Kitami, you've never developed into a "somebody" and it's been giving you a subtle identity crisis over the years which has now worsened. This is normal these days, to live in this kind of vague "fog", as Kazuya would say. It's not your fault, we're just surrounded by simpletons who can't frame anything accurately and pollute our thinking. Looking back, this was apparent in your blogposts, or how you once briefly opened a Patreon for your Twitch streams only to conclude (maybe correctly) that you were being a pretender and quitting. And now his conversion.
My suggestion here is that you follow your own example from the Patreon era, i.e. realize you're fooling yourself, or maybe poisoning yourself is the right word. Now rather than later, once you're invested and another life-changing realization you've been surpressing slaps you in the face and you're forced to conclude you've wasted even more years. I don't know if traditional religion suits anyone, but these types of conversions from atheism to theism are not healthy, IMO. You're latching onto things that most of society validates because of your lack of mental resilience and independence, just because it's easy. It's not hard to see how you embody the very thing you once admired FKMT for speaking out against. I don't know if your weed habits are the same as in the past, but I don't think they've done you much good. Along with your father's passing, which is understandable. My suspicion here is that he was Christian and this has led you to convert. *If* that is the case, you're surrendering the direction of your life to regret and guilt and becoming a mere puppet.
Don't feel obligated to respond to this autistic rambling of mine. I apologize for making you sit through this and thank you if you did. I know it was unpleasant but you deserved to hear it. It's not too late to turn back but, regardless, I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors. You are not the kind of man FKMT would lionize (speaking psychologically here, not achievement-wise), but maybe one day, you will be. I know you can.
P.S. - I wanted to mention myself as little as possible because I felt my words should stand on their own merit but, for what it's worth, I'm only an atheist in a strictly logical/empirical way. I appreciate FKMT's depiction of God as the humbling force of Chaos and often frame things in symbolic theistic terms, God vs. the Devil, spiritual purity, etc. Nihilism in the form of weakness of character and aversion to truth, that kinda thing. In case you thought I was coming from a place of total ignorance and not understanding why you'd gravitate toward spirituality.
DeleteP.S.S. - After reading through the Discord, this is brutal. Reminds me of Tonegawa shitting on the people on Espoir because they want their questions answered, why, because they have a crippling addiction to peace of mind. Most people do and boy are you no exception. Mass religion is just a template for people who can't find anything valid themselves. It's the opposite of spirituality and the death of the soul, the opium of people who can't grapple with ideas well. I don't know what ancient part of the brain suddenly flips the switch to make one go from secular to religious nut, just like that. I'm far less millitantly atheist than in the past, but man, you sound like a machine when you talk now...Your life is always gonna be a narrow corridor built by the standards of others at this rate. Then again, I guess the foundation was always there. The drug and porn addict is now a peace-of-mind platitude addict, it's not surprising.
DeleteYou're probably not reading this anymore since I am quite late. You said you want to become a pro translator and I do hope, probably in vain, that your ideology won't bleed into the works and that, at least, the brain-bleach will have the side-affect of sorting your life out.
geez dude let the man explore his purpose bro
Deletemy man's just having an existential crisis from all the recent shit he's gone through.
i say he should take a break, not like "i got sick so no translation for the week", i mean like an actual 3-5 month break.
dude probably has severe burnout from constantly keeping up with translating and the peer pressure from missing out
if he becomes a devout theist, let him be, if he returns to translations, it is as it is. i'd feel chronically conflicted if all this happened to me as well, grief and all
I understand this is a result of his grief and sympathize. I even agree with you that he should take a longer break. I'm somewhat spiritual and an admirer of Christ myself, so nothing wrong with that. I just think traditional theism means being dishonest with yourself and being too narrow-minded, and only gets worse the more fundie you get.
DeleteIt's troublesome how quickly and suddenly he converted, how he calls things he used to enjoy evil/degenerate/demonic/sinful etc., appears to suffer from (internalized) homophobia, and praising Jesus and talking about his love never comes across as anything other than creepy to me. Might get better over time but also might not.
His inability to understand FKMT alone makes it clear he's not the brightest bulb, so it irks me how people who claim to care about him or even be his friends show nothing but blind support.
Thank you for all the great work, I started binge reading Kaiji 2 years ago and kept up with it ever since. It was amazing and so entertaining, and I think you for making that experience possible.
ReplyDeleteI wish you all the best, although I don't agree with your views. The bible endorses slavery, genocide, killing infants, demanding human sacrifices and worship, treating women as inferior to men, and the vast majority of people being sent to hell, which is suffering that never ends. Granted, the bible does have good things in it, but then again, so does Kaiji.
I don't think of you as any worse for your views, and I respect them, just disagree. I wish you all the best for the future.
The bible is a man-made record of holy events. Of course it isn't as perfect as the Lord himself. Don't confuse belief with mindlessly following scripture.
DeleteThe point is that the bible is far worse than anything Fukumoto has ever written, meaning it seems strange to abandon Kaiji whilst still sticking with the bible, the worst one of the two. Granted I don't know his views, he didn't even say he was a Christian. But if he's ok with dismissing these things in the bible it makes no sense to drop Kaiji.
DeleteOf course it's his choice, he has no obligation to do any of this, and he's already done more than anyone needs to do.
Good for you! I wish you all the best for your future. I am happy that you saw the light.
ReplyDeletePraise the Lord!
the man named "Oreimo" saying this is especially funny
DeleteHe lost it
ReplyDeleteare you le ok?
ReplyDeleteYou owe us nothing, I'm happy for you if you quit due to no longer enjoying the latest chapters of Kaiji. I hope you don't feel you've wasted your time all these years, though; you've enriched our lives by providing us with top-notch entertainment (otherwise unavailable to the English speaking world) and interesting blog posts.
ReplyDeleteFukumoto is just a man like any of one of us. Disregard the people saying stuff like "Have you learned nothing from Fukumoto's works?" Whether or not you agree with Fukumoto's world view is irrelevant.
Anyway, I want to thank you for your hard work over the years. Don't mind the anonymous people judging you for your thoughts, actions, and feelings. I hope you find peace within yourself and enjoy whatever you use your newfound free time for. Just take it one step at a time. You should be cautious about that YouTube video idea, though - as someone else commented, you'll probably be ripped to shreds over something like that.
First the whole "Endou is gay" wall of text shenanigans, now you're saying Fukomoto completely changed his mindset, based only on the fact he's producing comedic side-stories for his villains?
ReplyDeleteIt's not in my place to say anything, and I'm just being an internet asshole, but since you decided to publish all of this and talk about your personal life and reasons to stop, I'm going to exercise my right to offer a reply as well. I think you're overthinking everything, going out on weird tangents, and all because you're not mentally well. You sound like some schizo guy, and not only some of yours texts are too overdeveloped and of excessive substance and weird assumptions about silly themes, they're also bloody hilarious, to be honest. I thought you were joking until you mentioned your dad, even.
Anyways, you do what you want, for whatever reason you want, of course. Wish you all the best, and hope you get better, strange elaborate views on things or not.
I also think it's weird you think Fukomoto's mindset lines up with TOnegawa's social darwinism nowadays, since he drew and wrote Shin Kurosawa not too long ago, and in there there's a whole chapter dedicating to applauding Che Guevara's efforts (considering him a hero). Fukomoto is very left-leaning.
DeleteThank you so much for all the work you've done over the years.
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ReplyDeleteI want to thank you for translating some of my favorite manga since I started following your blog about 6 years ago when I myself was working a very hellish job, it brought me a lot of joy whenever I'd see the new releases. If I didn't stumble onto your blog after watching the anime for Kaiji I doubt I ever would have cared enough to learn how to play Mahjong, let alone how much I'd enjoy playing it and reading other mahjong manga.
ReplyDeleteI wish you the best, and thank you for all the happy memories.
you actually make a good point regarding fukumoto's change in handling characters and morals. Kaiji went from "I will not look away from my fingers to honor those who died under your wrath" to "Fuckin floor these black ties Chang!" while Kazuya was initially shown as a malicious psychopath that tortures people for novel writing to "I blame it on my mommy waah!".
ReplyDeleteThat's not a change in morals. Charging at the black suits with the van was the only way to escape and any harm to them was pretty unlikely. Failing due to something like that would've been a disgrace to all of their risk-taking, really. Kaiji challenged Hyoudou when he might've prioritized covering Ishida's debt, chose to ruin Muraoka when he didn't have to, chose to gamble further with Kazuza before repaying Sakazaki's money and considered betraying the latter during the Bog arc. Kaiji has always been idealistic with shades of moral grayness.
DeleteI don't get your problem with Kazuya at all. He writes the novels and commits evil because he's bitter and traumatized with no purpose. Nature and temperament-wise, he's actually kinda soft. If anything that isn't one-dimensional looks like a contradiction to you, you're not suited for literature or fiction of any sort.
A few gay jokes and the little snowflake loses his mind lmao
ReplyDeleteIf you geniunely think what you just said, go and reread all the works you have contributed. Deep down you know you are being delisuonal more than any one of us. I know you have been through alot, losing your dad (that was you afaik) etc. but everyone goes through stuff like that. Stop hiding behind nonsense and seek help.
ReplyDeleteHe did. If the churches that promote this kind of indoctrination weren't exactly what passes for help, they wouldn't exist.
DeleteChurches are the reason why he ended up like this in the first place. Stop supporting his unstable mentality.
DeleteI KNOW, that's what I'm saying. Do you know what the word indoctrination means and do you suppose it's positive?
DeleteAh, my bad. Just misread it.
DeleteI KNOW, that's what I'm saying. Do you know what the word indoctrination means and do you suppose it's positive?
ReplyDeleteA: "I'm turning to alcoholism."
ReplyDeleteB: "I fully respect your decision and encourage you in whatever you want to do with your life."
A: "On second thought, I'm actually just gonna kill myself."
B: "Go ahead. I care about you as my friend. With my support, I repay you for all you've done. Hell, let me tie the noose around your neck."
You don't have any opinions and don't give a fuck, you just want to virtue signal uselessly about how tolerant and above it all you are. There's a difference between already deciding on your own you know what's best for others and just challenging them on their bullshit once. When you can't tell the difference, err on the side of charitable interpretations.
Tell me this is a fucking joke... Its not April Fool yet.
ReplyDeleteI don't even want to read the full letter. You quit? Okay. It's your right. But talking all this nonsense and bullshit about God and how there is so much "evil" in Fukumoto's works? For fuck sake, man... I am so dissapointed. Get your head fixed. There never was and never will be such thing as a God. I'm sorry. All this "God" crap was created for people to deal with concept of death and for governments to control masses. There are only people. Dumb, smart, ugly, charismatic, evil, kind, lucky, unlucky, beautiful people. Different kinds of people. And whatever happens to them is pure luck, either bad or good, and consequences of their own actions. There's no "grand plan", there's no meaning in good people suffering every day. It just HAPPENS and all we have to do is accept it, try to become better and help those who in need. Trusting in some entity that created everything is such an idiotic decision, but even worse is talking shit towards really good stories from Mr. Fukumoto. It's all about optimism and never losing faith in humanity and kindness, it was NEVER about giving up. And giving up is what YOU are doing. Not about Manga, but about yourself. His work "Life~Existence" is simply one of the greatest stories I've read. What, you didn't know he writes something like this? Such a shame.
You sound like a religious fanatic, and this is not healthy. You need help, and I'm not being sarcastic in any way. Whatever. Thanks for all your hard work, I really enjoyed reading Kaiji One Poker Hen but I'm not visiting this blog never again.
You just read that his dad died. So yes he's clearly using God and religion to cope. James is not mentally stable right now, and telling someone who is evidently not-calm that he's wrong and to calm down is only pouring more fuel into a car crash.
DeleteRelgion wasn't made for people like you, it was created for people that are vulnerable and are willing to believe in a higher power to feel hope, that things will get better, or simply needing a purpose. We all like Kaiji a lot, it's our favorite fiction story. And some people like the bible a lot, it's their favorite fiction story. It doesn't matter if Itou Kaiji or Jesus didn't really exist, its a story that people clung to and enjoy.
The next step to enabling weakness is having people use it to excuse anything. There's compassion and then there's holding people to the standard of an adult. Stop lowering those standards.
DeleteIt's not okay to abuse your wife because you got PTSD during war. It's not okay to falsely accuse your man of rape because you feel he neglected you. It's not okay pushing people toward life-changing sex-surgery and hormonal therapy when they clearly haven't even considered other options. Grieving won't get you out of drunk driving or murder charges.
Not being calm means not being able to think clearly, which is why it's no surprise that most forms of coping are terrible. You tell people who cope by overeating that obesity is bad for the individual and society. You tell people the same regarding intellectual obesity.
Escapism is nowhere near as extreme as accusing someone of rape. OP and you are both brain damaged jajaja
DeleteMaking my case for me, thank you. You had the choice between the actual comparison to obesity and arguing the general case for hideous character as a result of embracing weakness. It was never a question which one to go for, was it? Your brain damage makes you an intellectually dishonest worm.
DeleteYou playing internet police is just pathetic... it's sad. Your word choice tells me you're extremely socially inept, or a basement dwelling sociopath. You need help more than James.
DeleteFor the confused and impressionable: don't let the sore loser without grace, who appeals to social standing and imagines all sorts of vivid scenarios instead of a logical argument lecture you on sociopathy. It took him one post to drop the "cut people some slack" attitude and start spitting venom. You wouldn't look at that and think he has consistent values of his own outside of the mob, so don't follow his example. If you're feeling insecure enough to stoop to his level, take a break and self-reflect.
DeleteWho am I kidding though, it's actually a her, isn't it.
DeleteHere, I'll actually respond since you took the time to actually read what I wrote, take it to heart and digest it. I wrote you off initially but we're both getting enough entertainment out of this to keep checking the page so, lets see where this pointless thread goes.
DeleteThe moment you went to "But talking all this nonsense and bullshit about God" is when you stopped any semblance of a chance for the rest of whatever you wrote to be convincing. Belief in religion comes from a place of weakness and even if you don't agree with it, calling it idiotic, dumb etc, isn't helpful. Especially when their coping mechanism isn't particularly harmful to themselves or those around them. If someone's hobby is collecting stamps, literally who cares. It doesn't hurt anyone or infringe on others' freedom. You trying to force religion off of James isn't going to do anything aside from wasting his time. It's pathetic that you feel the need to "correct" him because you don't believe in god, forcing what you believe over someone else's.
In response I said [insert what I said above]. You got that the tl;dr was to be patient with him, and it's not a big deal. He's grieving, let him. Now the parts where James misunderstood FKMT's work... who cares? It's a work of fiction, and he's not going to read more FKMT in the future. James thinking Hermione was black, bc he interpreted the work wrong doesn't affect your life in any way. The actual themes/morals/plot of FKMT's work is evident enough, that if someone is misinterpreting it to this degree, you should be able to infer that it's being done on purpose. You know he's grieving, you know he's sad, you know he's regretting his translation hobby. He's finding a reason to stop.
Now for this part: "who appeals to social standing and imagines all sorts of vivid scenarios" care to elaborate? I wasn't the one making up all these PTSD wife beating and gender change surgery scenarios. Maybe you forgot you wrote them, and got confused?
Wrapping this up, I responded to the first post more for future readers than you. It was evident that you were unsympathetic to what James was going through. Typing in call caps "YOU" "NEVER" etc just makes you sound like a child. I get it, you feel strongly about it, but it hurts your argument when you're trying to be convincing but behave like an infant. I wasn't expecting a response to be honest, but was pleasantly surprised when I got one. I read your reply and again, wrote you off as some sociopath that's trying to sound smarter than he really is. Which is fine, but you'll outgrow it eventually. It took this long for me to actually take the time to write a real reply because I've had enough of these internet arguments to know when you're not going to change someone's mind. It can only happen when both sides are open to it, and you are not open to changing your mindset. Everything you've shown me so far tell me that you have some sort of inferiority complex and you make yourself feel better by telling others how they should be living their lives. No human being talks like how you type. "don't let the sore loser without grace" It oozes low-self confidence. I don't think of this as a game with winners and losers, but you sure do.
With everything above said, sorry to make you read all that. I certainly wouldn't have. I'll be more receptive to your reply if you talk normally, and I guess we'll do this until one of us runs out of topics or interest.
You assuming my gender was just... icing. Get help. Seriously :)
Delete>The moment you went to "But talking all this nonsense and bullshit about God"
DeleteOP is the one who did. It's immaterial here, just don't conflate the two of us.
>calling [weakness] dumb, idiotic, etc. isn't helpful
Strongly disagree. Without getting too autistically philosophical, if you're looking for a crutch, there is no better one than strength and no greater compassion than pushing one toward it (without being an abusive dickhole, sure).
Thinking one can afford to not promote strength is, in my opinion, a position of immense privilege, the result of a complacent life full of safety nets. Life is a minefield where half the mines have a delayed trigger. It's arrogant to think it isn't. Things can get much worse very suddenly. You and I can never agree if we both don't treat it that seriously.
>Especially when their coping mechanism isn't particularly harmful to themselves or those around them
Yes. It's not "particularly" harmful, as in not in a way that's immediately measurable/provable. But the past centuries and present day are full to the brim with examples of populations with inflexible, simplistic, tribalistic mindsets causing great harm to themselves. Mostly as a result of insecurity, victimhood mentality and bitterness that bleeds through in the form of demonizing others. Secular religions like Marxism and identitarian post-modernist leftism too, in case you think I'm only pouncing on the traditional ones.
I think it's important to have the attitude that your shit doesn't smell any better than others', to put it bluntly, and there's danger in thinking it does. You can see how Sonic is headed in that dangerous general direction and given how he consistently misunderstands FKMT, he's not bright enough to not worry about. That's why it's a problem: storytelling is an artform because good fiction is about reality. It's ironic how Sonic isn't being tolerant enough while you're so tolerant toward that deficiency of his, you slide into pure relativism where there's hardly any "correct". Both of you are veering into opposite extremes.
I'm not a "militant atheist/rationalist" type and I definitely frame some things in religious terms. Spirituality isn't innately the problem, the problem is the narrow-minded black-and-white thinking that doesn't befit an adult. Mass-appeal religion is a cancer, no two ways about it.
>I wasn't the one making up all these PTSD wife beating and gender change surgery scenarios.
Those are real, documented cases beyond the walls of your parents' basement. See the difference?
Then there's you further confusing me with OP, who never returned. I understand, I've made the mistake of assuming only one anonymous person could possibly disagree with me plenty of times. Still, a couple points:
Delete>"don't let the sore loser without grace" It oozes low-self confidence.
I'm pretty sure you decided on a proper reply like this one (which I appreciate and respect, btw) because it was the truth and it hurt. I don't like seeing my honest effort countered with nothing but lazy ad hominem. I think that debating with the intention of "defeating" your opponent is wrong and only leads to manipulating the picture into LOOKING like you've won. At the same time though, if we're both trying to establish the truth here instead of fucking around, then I'm sorry, there IS a right and wrong, or winning or losing, if you will. Just because it's seldom clear who won doesn't mean nobody did. What you say about people not willing to change their minds in debates resonates with me, but I'm not sure if YOU get to complain with your relativist and insult-oriented approach. I'm not sure if I should apologize for calling you female or take it back, but this is why I did, and I will say you moved in the right direction ever-so-slightly with this post.
I can say I'm open to being wrong, but sometimes you think you've got way too much strong evidence and argumentation to realistically change your mind. It's interesting how you say it's not about winning or losing when it suits you, but you imply that a debate is a waste of time if neither side changes their mind.
>telling others how they should be living their lives
I've neglected to clarify that I don't, so I'm doing it here. Sonic can do what he wants, I feel no insecurity about it. That doesn't mean mistakes are not mistakes, though.
>It was evident that you were unsympathetic to what James was going through.
I am sympathetic. I just promote a masculine mindset where you don't let your pain become an excuse to stop thinking clearly. There is no shame in a man admitting he needs help and seeing a shrink or picking up some other hobby would be better. Getting hooked on meds isn't ideal, but better than religious brain-bleach.
>I read your reply and again
Thanks, first time I ever got a hint of anyone reading it even once. You probably only did it because you had no idea what the fuck I was saying, but it forces you to use your brain and improves cognition.
>You know he's grieving, you know he's sad, you know he's regretting his translation hobby. He's finding a reason to stop.
DeleteI don't like rationalization. Just be honest and don't bullshit yourself. And I dunno, adding what he said on Discord to this, he seems genuine.
It all comes down to insecurity. You're basically implying I'm insecure because I try to control Sonic's life, but you try to control my life by telling me not to spend time criticizing people like this. All because you have a protective bias toward the perceived "victim". (My victim of choise is reality btw, can't stand people abusing it like it's the new kid in class) Your earlier response was just a "stop talking", which actually seems insecure to me.
Do you see how other people can be a mirror for you and how easy it is to be guilty of the same thing you fault in others? Even if you say *I* don't see it, Sonic definitely doesn't. You can't see it if you're gonna call things "sinful" or say that FKMT has lost his "righteousness", as if making the villains lose all their money isn't tormenting them enough.
Sorry for the verbal diarrhea, but all of this was important. You asked for it.
Also excuse my retardation regarding the "read your reply and again" part, I myself could use reading shit properly.
DeleteI knew you could do it if you tried. You do this long enough and you know when to read a tl;dr or actually just tl;dr. Though if you're always going to sneak in a few not-so-subtle jab, they're better put in the middle. Like a compliment sandwich.
DeleteSomeday I hope you can calm down, because I get it, you're pretty set in your ideals/mindset of how a man should be. But its just so inflexible. What are you going to do when you disagree with someone important in your life? Just keep burning bridges until you're in a circlejerk? You may not see yourself as a militant atheist but you kind of are. You are not going to be the person to end christianity/religion. You're afraid of future repercussions, or people that will take it too far but extremists can exist in anything, not just religion. You have like below-average intelligence and a 0 in wisdom. Now I'm feeling sad for you. You only know all of these identification terms, bc you have this deep sense inferiority or being looked down upon as stupid, so you went and memorized all the terms to appear smarter in a peacock fashion. It's having the opposite effect actually, and a telling sign of a pseudo-intellectual.
To go back, your mindset isn't going to take you very far. You really seem to like labels and putting people in boxes, and that's not healthy. But I guess that's _your_ coping mechanism. Every child eventually has a sondering moment, and from reading above, I don't think you've experienced it in a true sense. (or maybe at all, just because of how childish you are on some things) I hope you do come to that realisation, eventually.
Damn bro, I was responding to your first two replies (of today) when you posted two more. And no, I didn't ask for this? You saw me trying to get out of it, and I explained I only replied the first time bc I didn't think I was going to get a reply. Come on man
DeleteBut I am willing to keep this going ;) Until I can't.
Delete>you're pretty set in your ideals/mindset of how a man should be
DeleteWomen should be the same, lest I make the wrong impression. I favor encouragement instead of shaming. And I'm really open-minded, or have you forgotten? I read sinful works that promote demons like the ones by FKMT. Imagine being too narrow-minded to do that.
>But its just so inflexible.
No. Inflexible would be saying that it's shameful for a man to seek help. Or saying that all spiritual thinking is inherently bad without separating it from religion. I did the opposite.
>What are you going to do when you disagree with someone important in your life? Just keep burning bridges until you're in a circlejerk?
I have a friend who's a full-blown communist. It's frustrating but he doesn't think the bourgeoisie should all be thrown in the fucking gulags at least, so I can tolerate it. If or when he starts to think it, I will not be a coward. I will either change his mind or annoy him enough to cut me off. Despite how convenient it would be to pretend it's suddenly not a problem when you have someone valuable to lose. Calling people out on their shit is probably what introverts evolved for. Grow a spine.
>You may not see yourself as a militant atheist but you kind of are.
Anti-theist then, how about that. Again though, I'm a great admirer of Christ and I don't mind speaking of the human spirit or the Devil, symbolically.
>You're afraid of future repercussions, or people that will take it too far but extremists can exist in anything, not just religion.
Wrong. I don't mind "extremists". If you called me one yourself, I wouldn't mind. What I mind is reductionist herd-mentality where you make unfalsifiable claims, where all the good lies with you and all the bad lies with the enemy, where identity/ideological allegience matters over merit. Again, even if you think Sonic isn't there yet, he's on the general path.
>You have like below-average intelligence and a 0 in wisdom.
Scathing. Lord knows what sick burn you'd come up with if you took a day's worth of thinking to respond again. I should be grateful.
>so you went and memorized all the terms to appear smarter in a peacock fashion
Right...Which ones? I explained "identitarian" to you just now.
You keep distractingly alluding to your years in online debates without having any, you know, actual experience in them whatsoever. Inflating yourself while trying to put me down, nothing else. Peacocking, in other words.
If English is your second language, I'm sorry, but it is for me as well. No excuses.
You got that part about the tragedy of man and how he never changes his mind in debate right by accident, didn't you? Well no shit he doesn't, you have to present an argument instead of just vitriol. You're right that human conversation is rigged; you're doing the rigging. Wait what am I saying, that's not the role you ever play in these, you're just here for "entertainment".
Don't complain about me calling you a loser when you cynically say "people never change their mind, might as well troll" before even trying. You think THAT will take you to the moon?
>You really seem to like labels and putting people in boxes
DeleteLike "victim" and "predator". Wait, that's what you do. Sonic's world can be the size of the head of a pin for all it matters, mine...not so much. Good for the goose but not for the gander, double-standards aplenty. When will you admit you're just looking for a fucking fight?
>and that's not healthy.
Imagine.
"I explained I only replied the first time bc I didn't think I was going to get a reply"
The unexpected can happen. Maybe getting a leg blown off would sober you up. Your previous post sucked but at least you tried to argue, now you've regressed back to name-calling again. I'm not motivated by the lulz like you are but it is getting stale. You're just disagreeing impotently without being able to articulate exactly how I'm wrong; I'm talking to someone who doesn't live in reality.
If you are a woman - and I'm really generous by even treating it as a question - then reflect on why some people say that arguing with them is a waste of time or why men resemble them too much these days. Please actually engage with the meat of the matter, the substance, the merit. With what is said, not the assumptions you're pulling out of thin air. If you don't know or can't be bothered, just don't, it's fine! Or if you're on auto-pilot and hostage to your ego, give me a subtle hint.
DeleteIt is depressing, you know. People could be embodiments of hope, but they instead choose to be embodiments of hopelessness. Like you and Sonic, living in your own universe, impossible to get through to, destined to repeat everyone's mistakes. Surely after bitching about me being set in my ways and inflexible, YOU'RE prepared to change your mind? You hold yourself to the same standard, right? Then fucking read everything I say carefully or don't respond at all. Your next hot take better be high quality instead of 95% identity-focued deflection.
Delete"People could be embodiments of hope, but they instead choose to be embodiments of hopelessness." I'm trying to take what you say seriously but then you go and say middle school shit like this. You yourself are one of the most detached people from reality. And if we're going to talk about time, it taking you nearly 2 hours to respond to the whole thing I wrote earlier today. Check the timestamps, ~30min =/= 24 hours.
Delete"Like "victim" and "predator". Wait, that's what you do." When have I done this? I can say now that James is a victim to his circumstances, which you would agree on as well (since according to you, shit just happens, we're powerless to it) but I think this is where your cynicism stops you from thinking past that. Usually people can reach this point on their own but since you can't/choose not to, here's the cliffnotes version. _After_ giving someone grieving time to heal, that person eventually has to pick themselves back up. You don't realize that what you're trying to do is just what comes after naturally. But instead you're rushing into "I have to solve the problem right away" and are shaking James, telling him he's wrong repeatedly. That behavior isn't encouragement, it's closer to trying to shame him on his new beliefs and his intelligence for believing it in the first place. If you take everything you wrote and read it as if it was meant for yourself, this would come to full circle. You're clearly someone with too much time on their hands, which is fine, since hey, I'm here too aren't I? ;)
And please never use shit like "I have a black friend" argument. I don't care about your real or fictional friend. Telling me what you would do when x scenario ever happens... Now that's peacocking.
"I will either change his mind or annoy him enough to cut me off." To put it in words with the labels you love so much: You're closed minded (feigning open-mindedness), extremely controlling to an unhealthy degree, and sexist. It really creeps me out that you care so much whether I'm one or the other. Like you're someone that has never interacted with girls before, or (to repeat myself) extremely socially inept. It could be your upbringing, or maybe you were born fucked. It doesn't matter. Either way, here you are.
>I'm trying to take what you say seriously but then you go and say middle school shit like this.
DeleteI knew you'd laser-focus on it, that's why I decided to say it after all. You are incapable of appreciating WHAT is being said. You only care about your perception of WHO is saying it. Not even who actually, just your delusional image of them. You prove my point.
>it taking you nearly 2 hours to respond to the whole thing I wrote earlier today
......I have no fucking words for how pathetic you are. But clearly we're both putting in the same amount of effort here. It sure is easy saying "I'm willing to keep going ;)" when you ignore the inconvenient 90% of the text.
"When have I done this?"
It stings when an accusation feels unjustified, doesn't it?
>"I have to solve the problem right away"
Procrastinate instead. Genius. For what it's worth, this IS how men typically deal with problems though and it has served us well over the ages. But wait, I thought my actual position is that.....
>since according to you, shit just happens, we're powerless to it
That's what YOU'RE saying you imbecile. The entire premise of your opposition to me is predicated on "hands off of James, just let drift aimlessly for a while". I'm shellshocked by how moronic you are.
You should "stand still" while grieving for exactly the same reason you shouldn't drive when drunk. You treating CONVERTING TO A RELIGION like it's stasis instead of motion proves you don't live in reality. I don't care how many excuses or dismissals you have for that, we've also established you don't give a fuck about James and are only interested in being contrary. If I say going to a shrink and/or taking some time off is fine and it goes right past you, I can't help you.
>telling him he's wrong repeatedly
>That behavior [...] is closer to shaming
You are a mess. Just straight up rejecting reality and substituting your own. I'm not talking to you, NO, all this time I've been talking to him, of course! Silly me. Are you James? That's be a twist. And again, it's fine for YOU to tell ME I'm wrong repeatedly (like literally, JUST saying I'm wrong, no real supporting argument).
>And please never use shit like "I have a black friend" argument.
You mean it's IRRELEVANT fuckaboutery that has nothing to do with the core issue? But only when I answer the question you asked, of course. You're an absolute cunt. I have been exceedingly polite, but this argument has been about less than nothing. I don't know what severe personality disorder makes you stuck in this loop of arguing with strawmen conjured up in your imagination. It's certainly your upbringing. I know I had an exchange with you here a couple months before and holy fuck, now that the blog is dead, I won't miss you and your cognitive train wreck of pulling assumptions out of your ass.
Have fun being the tragic hero of future debates because nobody can see the infinite wisdom you so obviously exude.
PLEASE raise your reading comprehension beyond the level of an actual middle-schooler. Not even for the sake of my successors, but for the sake of addicts like James who can't just be assumed to be okay in the long-term no matter what they do. The confusion you add to the discourse is atrociously irresponsible.
DeleteI know you didn't appreciate the minefield metaphor if you even read it, but you have to put your feelings aside and focus on the STEPS you take so you don't get blown up in the end. I don't know how you can expect a different mindset HERE of all places.
That was great, honestly my favorite reply from you yet. Seeing you scrape the bottom of what should be a brain to scrounge up these sad excuses of retorts is both incredibly depressing and continues to be entertaining. It's actually really cute that you're so gung-ho on what it means to be a man, but spend so much time on your responses. I said much earlier that this was pointless, and it's very easy to recognize that from the beginning. You'll learn eventually if you do this long enough.
DeleteYou're a child that has been both emotionally and mentally stunted. You don't know how to live, so you've made it your life's mission to play internet police. You have your own snowflake idea of masculinity and when anyone contradicts that, you become offended and poorly attempt to change them either by verbal assault or annoyance. You refuse to look in the mirror and see how obese you've gotten in your own arrogance. Or maybe it's not that you're not willing to understand, but simply unable to. You are mentally stunted, after all. Seek help, you genuinely need it more than James.
I'm having fun at least, I assume you are as well, to some degree. You've provided entertainment value, for not just me, but future readers as well. But who am I kidding, this is mostly for me :) This is the most value you will provide in your entire lifetime.
"I'M NOT OWNED, I'M NOT OWNED, I'M ACTUALLY LAUGHING SO HARD RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE A CHILD AND I'M TOTALLY RESPONDING LIKE THE PROPER WELL-ADJUSTED ADULT THAT - NEED I REMIND YOU AGAIN, NOT OUT OF CRIPPLING INSECURITY OR ANYTHING - YOU'RE NOT, THIS IS JUST ANOTHER NOTCH IN MY BELT AND I'M SO ABOVE THIS, I'M NOT PROJECTING MY PEACOCKING ONTO YOU, I ***NEED*** YOU TO THINK ALL OF THIS SO I KEEP REPEATING IT, BTW STOP BEING SO CONTROLLING AND INSECURE, I DIDN'T SET THIS UP AS "POINTLESS" FROM THE BEGINNING AS AN EXCUSE TO NEVER HAVE TO FIGHT AND LOSE, I'M NOT JUST PARROTING COMEBACKS I'VE READ ELSEWHERE OUT OF UNINSPIRED DESPERATION"
DeleteWhatever, man. I treated this as a serious conversation between adults from the start, never as fun. You don't put this much autistic effort into fun. I recommend a career in pornography if you want superficial attention without being taken seriously. I'm sorry I did and I hope the people whose lives you infest will also get the hint, sooner or later. God bless the men who keep your princess ass safe and well-fed enough for you to pretend the world wouldn't fall apart under your sage guidance. To think that I'M the one with the fundamentally outlandish idea of masculinity is hilarious.
Like I realize this is actually making you super stressed and uncomfortable and you probably think you're so brave for coming back here. It's not bravery that fuels you but insecurity, which is why you only do the bare minimum. You have shown nothing but pure cowardice in the face of defeat (by merit, not identity-based social posturing), which is why I walk away from this assuming you're female. I get why people believe in a literal God because who else can even save your pitch-black soul? I've spouted nothing but idealism here, for you to speak of cynicism is a joke.
DeleteYou clearly didn't, as evident by how you break out into spamming caps when you can't articulate and try to make what you type seem more than what it actually is. This is you trying to force your beliefs onto others in one of the most childish and ineffective ways possible. Your tantrum above speaks more about your mentality than everything before it. You don't understand some of the words I used, and so you make the assumption they're from somewhere else. They must be, or your skewed little view of the world isn't in-line with how you want it, and that offends you. Poor baby.
DeleteI agree, you are sorry.
By the way, I'm here bc I see you trying in your replies, and come on, that's cute. It's like seeing a baby try to speak, or someone that compulsively types "first!" everywhere. I want to see what kind of ass-backwards logic you'll scrounge up next :) You've already resorted to making a doll of me. No man does the pathetic arguing you do online for hours. And now this is connecting back to your insecurities. Deep down you acknowledged you weren't manly, or still are bitch boy, so now you're putting on this front in hopes of changing, but it's not going anywhere because you're not convincing anybody.
DeleteBack on your fixation that I'm a girl: Not too far off to assume that you've had to rationalize your stress, and you clearly like to make assumptions, and have issues viewing yourself as some kind of sissy. So went and had to turn me into a woman. Because a man making you feel this way would be too much for you :)
KAMI-SAMA, TASUKETE is not an answer.
ReplyDeleteGood callback to the original manga's final.
DeleteOr think about Tonegawa getting tortured and Hyoudou grinning while Kaiji is crying, putting a mirror to you while showing you the ideal. Cut to the blog post complaining about too much sympathy for the baddies. These things really put into perspective how brain-bleached someone has to be to still Kami-sama this hard.
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ReplyDeleteOk ! So now that Sonickrazy has become... crazy ? Is there some other translators actually translating Fukumoto's works somewhere on the internet ?
For anyone who wants to read more Kaiji, a new group has picked it up and released chapter 338. Check MDex for Windii's translation.
ReplyDeleteThanks again FKMTkrazy, it seems like the torch will be passed along, so rest well.
I don't care if you went crazy or you're just trolling. The fact is you've been doing great work for 8 years and you should not be regretting it. Anyway I wish you luck in this new phase of your life.
ReplyDeleteThat's about the weirdest way of quitting I've ever seen. It seems so over the top that it feels like a parody to sort of quit this site and start anew under a different name due to the copyright issues, but that doesn't seem to be the case. Nothing wrong with finding religion, but that seems like near cult-like behavior or a mental breakdown.
ReplyDeleteThinking it over, the guy was apparently raised religious originally, smoked pot nearly every day to my knowledge and doesn't seem terribly well-equipped for tragedy or well-read and good with ideas. A hollow life with no great ups or downs until now, it seems. Honestly, he was destined for this. A childishly black-and-white worldview for the ideologically insecure manchild, and I'm saying this with empathy knowing that his parents might've been at fault.
DeleteYou're not supposed to say the quiet part out loud, I thought everyone else was playing along too.
DeleteWell thanks for all the hard work throughout the years, and sorry to hear about all the shit that's been going on with you guys, but god damn is that a way to quit... You should've just said I'm done and left it at that, this way makes you look like you're having a mental breakdown, and that honestly doesn't sound wrong...
ReplyDeleteIf something in your life is transforming your ideas and your interests significantly, and making you think that you've been wasting your life by just doing what you enjoyed, then that something is a poison. I'm glad more and more people are waking up to the idea that religion is harmful to just about everyone it touches, and I sincerely hope that one day it becomes a thing of the past. It's a predator of the worst kind, it grooms you your whole life through culture and indoctrination, and when you're at your most vulnerable point, it sweeps you up, tells you beautiful lies to make you feel better, and gives you a needed sense of security and belonging, but at the cost of giving yourself to it willingly. The bible tells you to surrender yourself to God, and live your life solely in the service of Him, it convinces you that without it you would be worthless and have no purpose, and that everything outside of it is meaningless. Instead of willingly becoming a slave to a tyrant that tells you how to feel, what to do, and how to live your life, you should spend your time doing what you enjoy and thinking for yourself. I'm not upset that you're quitting, but I am upset that the horrible stain on the human race that is religion has claimed another victim, I hope for nothing more than that you realize the fault in your decision. If you do read this, then I hope you can understand that I'm not saying this out of resentment, but that I genuinely wish the best for you in life, and that the road your currently taking does not look to me like it has your best interest in mind.
So who's doing Pen-Chan?
ReplyDeleteNever say these years was wasted, there was a time in my life where things where really hard and these chapters just made each week a little better. Thanks for all the hard work and take care
ReplyDeleteSo is there anybody translating The New Kurosawa?
ReplyDeleteI don't think so, sadly
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